Tuesday, November 6, 2007

right now, I'm not okay.


You’ve already done enough damage as it is but believe me when I say, I won’t ever love you again. You’ve lost me and I’m never coming back. How could you just hurt me so easily? How?! I’ve cried for nights. I’ve tried to move on. But I can’t. Well, I will but I just can’t right now. Did you know that I cried ‘cause of you on my birthday? That was the first time I cried in school. Thanks to you I’m broken again. How could you just move on so easily? So far, I haven’t seen you in school yet. It’s the second day since school was back. I guess just a hundred or two days left to avoid seeing you, meeting your eye or just passing you by. Who am I kidding? We’re in the same school, same campus. It’s not really that easy, is it? But I’ll try. I’ll try really hard. I’m missing those phone calls and text messages. I’m kinda getting used to it though. I had to erase your number from my contacts ‘cause seeing your name there tempts me to text you or include you in my gms. This all started when you didn’t choose me. That was before my birthday. That’s why I hate having someone close to my heart romantically when it’s almost my birthday. Well, whatever. I guess I will never learn. I tried with you. That’s the best I can do. Thanks, I guess, for everything. I hope you’re feeling depressed too, even just a little bit, ‘cause I am. I’m crying again. Can’t seem to stop the flow of tears. I can’t seem to erase your/our pictures. They’re still saved here in the laptop, but I will soon enough. You’ve hurt me so bad that I don’t know if I’m ready to bring my heart out there again. Anyway, I will move on… just wanted you to know.
“One of the saddest things in this world is loving someone who used to love you.”

*u won’t try 2 save me..u just want to hurt me..*


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