i just got my heart broken..again.i should not have told him how i felt.fuch.!fuch.!fuch.!it hurts so bad.the part when he said 'mahal q n c ****.' just left me devastated and all i could say was 'ah.ok.bye.' then i ran to my room and cried my heart out.im xho stupid.!!i just have this habit of wanting someone back.it's always me who wants to come back.well, he doesn't want me.he doesn't like me and he, sure as hell, doesn't love me..and i just wanna die.i can't believe i did that again.now all i have is a broken heart to the highest level.you know what's worse than getting hurt the first time?getting hurt a second time.it's a good thing there's no classes today.hmM..i don't want to see him.i don't want to see her. i don't want them to see me.i don't want them to see that i'm nuh ok.i don't think i'm going to be ok for a while.his messages are still on my phone.i can't bring myself to erase nor open them.they're just there.im in pain again.and im just crying here in my bed, listening to a stupid song on the radio.
i was just wondering..did he really care for me before like he said or was i just used to pass time till she came back.?!i want to hate you so badly.i want me to stop hurting.
im blaming myself for this, don't worry..
you never fought for me.u just cared about what other people thought.you didn't care whether or not you were losing me.you didn't come after me.i guess now i know why..
im xho pathetic for telling him how i felt and now im regretting every single word i said.
"Out of all the lies you said.. i love you is my favorite."
"and now i'm picking up the pieces
i'm spending all of these years
putting my heart back together."
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